Sort your shit out so we can get a house already,I really need to get out of here and it's such a great excuse.I hope your having an awesome summer
#6 — A stranger
The back of yo' head is ridikulas and you may or may not be hot/strange looking,I doubt I noticed you otherwise.But Hi anyway and have a good day/night/life
#9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Phillip DeFranco,one of the most subscribed YouTubers ever and a pretty funny guy.I'd just like to know what he's like in person.He's a good bit of my inspiration for this blog and has an amazing lige I'm stupidly jealous of,his job is to talk crap to a camera at home,play and review video games and pimp out his friends to the internet.How fucking great of a job is that?
#10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
There's far too many people that this goes out to.I've met so many people I'd love to get to know better,but life just doesn't work like that.I kind of prefer to keep moving between people or I'm just greedy,I don't know what it is,but I want to fit so much time in with so many people it never works out like that for anyone.But there's one person that springs to mind;
We really should hang out more man.The bit we have spent together we got on ridiculously well and you get my taste in music [as well as the nerdiness,you'd be amazed how rarely the two of those go together]
#14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
We used to be like two halves of the same person.When exactly did that end? It' still pretty similar when we do hang out ,as rare as that is.We have to change that some time soon.
#21 — Someone you judged by their first impression I was so wrong about you. Best mistake I've ever made tbh.
Can you sort yourself out please?The whole "I want to be happy" thing is a bit shite,I know what/who/where I DON'T want to be,but that still leaves a big ass target to hit.It'd be nice to have some sort of discernable place to aim for/a way to get there,I can figure those out pretty well.
Sleepy-type dream;Stop being so messed up,I get the whole subconscious thing for dreams.Why don't I ever remember you,like at all?And why are you never good? I want the flying one or one with blackjack and hookers,actually screw the blackjack.I don't sleep well anyway,you could at least entertain me when I am asleep,be more like daydreams,those things are awesome.They really help me get through the day.
# 23 — The last person you kissed
Was actually a dude,I'm staright,but I was rather drunk and was dared in a game of kings [I NEVER pass up a challenge] so yeah,awkward one this.I'd rather not go into details as I can't quite remember.But kind of bad timing on this one I guess :/
# 28 — Someone that changed your life
Thanks for being in my life,you showed me there's worse things in he world and that I'm not alone in all this shit.You aren't either,don't forget that. you're so positive and get my douchebaggy sense of humour.Try and keep your ridikulas head in line though mmkay? don't do anything I might regret.
Honestly guys,are you happy like this? I mean,you hardly talk,even less to me.The little you do manage is just small talk.I don't want anything from you,I gave up my expectations of you a long time ago.I would just like to see you happy is all,you deserve some of that after everything.It's not going to be coming form me,you've made that abundantly clear,but life is about the Up's the downs are only to keep everything in focus,don't let that confuse you.
20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
I've never really had my heart broken, as much of a big softy as I am and as easily I tend to fall for someone, I never really open up enough to get properly hurt or heart broken as much as I've opened up in recent years,I still can't let people fully "know me",it's a problem I have,it's getting better [with a huge thanks to this blog tbh] but now I guess I need someone to let in before I can get hurt,someone to see more than just one or two sides of me.
29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
You have no idea how truly beautiful you are on the inside and the outside.Don't change,just being you is all you'll ever need.
30 — Your reflection in the mirror
This probably the hardest one of these I'll write.Me facing myself in the mirror is one of those things that changes far too often.One day it's smiling and thinking of something funny,another day it might be frowning at the ridiculous amount of imperfections my skin has or how unfit I look.Sometimes I have to convince myself to just make it through the day,some days I'm asking why I even bother.Sadly,my attitude towards myself isn't that great most of the time,I guess something should change that,but it's always been like this
So,the best thing I could say to myself;"Dude,get your life together,the way things stand you're pretty pathetic;no girl,no car,no job,no goals,no life,no prospects.Seriously,hop to it man.
Is this what everyone else sees?
"I'm starting with the man in the mirror, I'm asking him to change his ways, And no message could've been any clearer, if you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make the change"
# 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
How Gay was that? seriously,how'd you talk me into it?
# 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
I don't really have anyone I want to forgive me,In general I know when I fuck things up and apologise soon afterwards,so I guess understanding is all I want from some people,not forgiveness.
# 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
This is much more than your second chance,cop the fuck on.Next time,I'm not coming back.
# 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
I don't really have a favourite memory,I don't have a "go to" memory that can bring a smile to my face. The happiest memory I have in the last while is from a party I was at earlier this year,I was talking to this girl and we just clicked so well.I remember we ended up just holding each other on the couch all night,talking crap and just having a laugh.Nothing happened and I just felt like someone liked me for me,without knowing how fucked up I am,just me as a person.It was nice.
Note to self: WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK HER OUT!!!
I'm so going to recycle this song some day.The SMELL of angst like
Why do I get the feeling we're drifting apart? I hope it's the same between us next time I see you.You are just awesome and amaze me the more I get to know you.Also, WHY ARE YOU SINGLE!?seriously,you can't be funny,hot AND single,there's always a catch[....are you a dude? >.> <.< :D]
# 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
I'm so,so sorry for what I said.I did mean it at the time,but I shouldn't have said it,it didn't make a difference.I wasn't in a great place and I was[am?] a horrible,horrible person on the inside,why couldn't you stay away? Why did I have to hurt you?I hope you're okay and thanks for having low standards ;)
# 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Good-Why are you in my head? I barely know you.Thanks for bringing a smile to my face
Bad-I'm sorry it has to be this way,I don't want to do this to you.But you don't change and something has to.I guess I'll take the fall again this time
# 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Hopefully,I'll change the "for only one day" bit.You weren't the friendliest person I've ever met,but for a single use friend,you had an effect. Thank for the pimp-speak,everyone hates it.But remember,I let you win,because you were funny and I regret nothing
This is so much better than the original IMO and I can't figure why
And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home? Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone? And doesn't it feel peculiar that everyone wants a little more. So that I do remember to never go that far, Could you leave me with a scar?
I hate this, all this angsty sounding Bullshit.This isn't attention seeking,this isn't acting out,this isn't sparta ;).This is my own piece of crazy trying get some therapy.
I hate the traditions here,it's like living in the 50's.If something's wrong pretend it isn't,if something needs saying don't ask about it,is someone is unusual it's wrong.If something is different stay away from it.
I think it's time I stopped biting my tongue and started biting back
No matter what way you treat a dog,always remember he's got teeth
